Fahr Farms Inc.

Assalamu'alaikum....

ma life(errrr)...... when it is boring, nothing happens. Nothing. When it gets interesting, it got to be a little too interesting for my liking. Take for example, my job. See, I started LOVing it. Before this, I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with my life. But now I know. I'm not that good at writing from draft, however, I guess I'm good at figuring out when something about banking or financing, or when something involved in money. I still love learning and reading about taxation, world economics review, business news, account principles...... these are the things that really makes sense to me.

Okay, so I just said I love my job. However, I wasn't liking the issues that was happening in the team (the fights, arguments, blame, the root course... let's just say things weren't going well). As much as I would love to rant and go into details, I'm not gonna. Simply because I don't want a written proof that I just went off on a specific person/people. I'm not gonna embarrass him/her/them like that. Of course, I also don't wanna get sued down the road after I become famous (how will I be famous? Dunno, haven't thought that far yet. )

I'm, however, going in general. I've too much anger to just let it sit and simmer. Hypocrisy, no matter how much all of us try to avoid it or deny it, lives in all of us. And yes, I do mean all. Try and count the times that you have said one thing then did the total opposite, or when you criticize someone for doing something but then found yourself doing the exact same thing. I know I've done it, and I've seen all of my friends do it, too (how do you suppose people find topics to gossip about?). Now while hypocrasy is a universal trait, there's a diference between that and being a full-blown hypocrite. A hypocrite doesn't recognize he/she is a hypocrite. Hypocrites tend to impose their opinions on others. Worse of all, what they say tend to hurt and in some cases, have a long lasting effect. And in my experience, hypocrites also tend to be able to talk their way out of a lot of things, or make it seem like what they say or do is totally right and in reality, it's not.

Sometimes even that does not work. Although I try not to let it consume me, I still find myself getting angry time and again over a mean word a friend said, or a mean thing someone did, or being bullied. The thing that calms me down is to remember that most of them do not mean to be cruel, and to also remember that somewhere out there someone else might still be hurting over what I did, too. Of course, that does not stop me from breaking friendships whenever I feel like I couldn't take it anymore (it is a vice of mine, less good, I know. I'm not the best example LoL).

Sometimes when things do not work, it is better to part ways. That's exactly what happened to my job. Some of the team members had to split ways with others so that the yelling would stop and the work could be done. It is not the most ideal situation, but at least it is a step to a better direction. You cannot treat people poorly and not expect repercussions. There are times to pick battles, and there are times to just shut up. There are ways to get around annoyances without airing out your and our problems in public. People are not meant to be perfect, that is a given. But we are given the choice to not appear .... So why choose to be one?

At least the team issues are pretty much resolved. I learned an important lesson....to not be afraid to admit when a situation is not working. I thought I learned that some time ago. If it doesn't work, and you have given it your best shot, then it just doesn't work.

Omigosh! I'm babble too much.....and I need to stop! as usual I'm not making any sense to anybody, better stop before I start eating my finger...

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