Asslamua'alaikum....
I haven't updated in a about 3 days jer, in fact. Been really busy lately(designed nin punyer web and yee punyer too) , but things has been weird. Now I'm back to reality, things had gotten a wee bit outta control. The things supposed to be easy turns out has a matter that I can't seem to find a way to get rid of. I've been sitting here in front of my laptop trying to pen something that could help me to find the solutions, but It's Still not. I really dont know how to write anymore, how to responds to the current situations, how to make decisions,...aahhh!! Crap! What I want!!!!
Know what I want? For now I want to run away to a place where I don't have to feel any pain, be it physically, emotionally or mentally. I want to run away to a place where you can breathe everything good and all the bad things are far, far away. I want to be where things are simple and simple to see, where you don't miss anything and everything is what you want it to be.
I want to be at a place where I can love and be loved in return. I want to be somewhere peaceful and quiet no one take anything for granted.. including me. I want to be at a place where saying nothing at all is equal to saying everything. I wanna be where the sun shines bright and the moon is brighter, where a smile is "Hello", a handshake is "I like you" and a kiss is "Be mine". I want to be at a place where I can have everything, only to realize that I actually need nothing.
Actually, all I want right now is to be free of everything.. free of responsibilities, free of pain, free of the expectations that as an adult, I have to act a certain way and I should feel a certain way or else I'm not mature enough or I'm not a good person .... or even worse, not good enough. Especially when I know probablyI'm a good person and a good friend and a good son.
Sadness overcomes you, but what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right? So I'm just gonna do what I have to do, **** everyone who don't like the methods.... :s
I haven't updated in a about 3 days jer, in fact. Been really busy lately(designed nin punyer web and yee punyer too) , but things has been weird. Now I'm back to reality, things had gotten a wee bit outta control. The things supposed to be easy turns out has a matter that I can't seem to find a way to get rid of. I've been sitting here in front of my laptop trying to pen something that could help me to find the solutions, but It's Still not. I really dont know how to write anymore, how to responds to the current situations, how to make decisions,...aahhh!! Crap! What I want!!!!
Know what I want? For now I want to run away to a place where I don't have to feel any pain, be it physically, emotionally or mentally. I want to run away to a place where you can breathe everything good and all the bad things are far, far away. I want to be where things are simple and simple to see, where you don't miss anything and everything is what you want it to be.
I want to be at a place where I can love and be loved in return. I want to be somewhere peaceful and quiet no one take anything for granted.. including me. I want to be at a place where saying nothing at all is equal to saying everything. I wanna be where the sun shines bright and the moon is brighter, where a smile is "Hello", a handshake is "I like you" and a kiss is "Be mine". I want to be at a place where I can have everything, only to realize that I actually need nothing.
Actually, all I want right now is to be free of everything.. free of responsibilities, free of pain, free of the expectations that as an adult, I have to act a certain way and I should feel a certain way or else I'm not mature enough or I'm not a good person .... or even worse, not good enough. Especially when I know probablyI'm a good person and a good friend and a good son.
Sadness overcomes you, but what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right? So I'm just gonna do what I have to do, **** everyone who don't like the methods.... :s
~from fer with regards~
1 comments:
That will bring you nowhere. That will not gonna help you. Make up you mind, u should stand up instead of being faint-hearted by imagining yourself out of all things that bugging your life rite now. think, act & fix.
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